Facing Insecurities

In preparation for my trip, a friend of mine suggested that I read "The Missionary Call." It's a great book about all different aspects of the mission field and right now I am on the section about hindrances to the call. I have really been praying lately that the Lord would open my eyes to the things I need to change and work on to be better prepared for July 31. I know that I am so completely unworthy and not at all at the place I need to be; however, I know that in my weakness He is made strong. So..the Lord definitely spoke to me through this section of the book--one part in particular said that it is so easy to hide and overlook your insecurities when you are being distracted by the things of this world. It is easy in America to get busy with all the things we have and not deal with our inner struggles. I've never really thought about it in that way--how often do I turn to Katherine, Jess, or Kassidy when I am having a problem? Do I go to them first or do I go to the Lord first?? It's so easy to find a distraction, such as a movie or tv show or even reading a book, so that I don't have to deal with my struggles.

After the Lord revealed this to me last night, I was just amazed by how He answers prayers! He has showed me many things that I need to deal with before I leave. I have got to continue striving to find my contentment in Him and only in Him. He is the only one that will always be there for me and will never lead me astray. I am so thankful to have an amazing Father who is always there for me! Please continue to pray for me as I prepare! I need them and appreciate them more than you will ever know! Please pray that I go to Him first and that I deal with my insecurities instead of being distracted by the things of this world.